[dmacfour]

Well it finally came out. We had a deep conversation about life, and the ****ed up relationships we both have had. We talked for 4 hours and I eventually mentioned I have had a crush on her for awhile. It was after she mentioned that all of her friends were telling her to go out with me (mine were too).

She said exactly what I was expecting:

-I'm her best friend and she doesn't know what she would do if we ****ed our friendship up with a relationship (I am seriously a deeper friend to her than the people she's been friends with since elementary school).

-She's hung up on an EX and another guy that friendzoned her, and she doesn't think it would be fair to be in a relationship with that still going on. She tried to go crawling back to her Ex but he turned her down.

-I'm not in the friendzone in her eyes (wtf does this mean?), but she doesn't even know why I am attracted to her after a lot the things she has told me about her past relationships (she's super insecure about a lot of things).

We talked about it like it was normal sh!t and we went about business as usual afterward. IDK what to think. She's told me she never thinks a door is closed, but it sounds like she values our friendship too much to consider a relationship. I didn't exactly get the definitive answer I wanted, because she worded her answers like she still has a relationship as a possibility.